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Sex: Female
Weight: 130lbs
Height: 5’9
Birth date: Oct, 2, 1994
Status: single mother of a beautiful boy
Experience: only fun projects in highs school

Let me begin by thanking you for using your valuable time to consider me and how elated I am you’re reading this.
Attentive and down to earth, I revel in being genuine and the best imaginable human in every situation.  Adore pushing my limits, seeking to expand my horizons and explore my maximum potential.  My weakness, as well as strength, is my desire to please. I enjoy making sure everyone is satisfied and delighted. HavIng an extremely opened mind full of ideas of my own, I love to collaborate and create art through the grace of my figure.

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do you love her more than me?

There is no easy way to say this. I need you to remember that even though I haven’t been myself lately and that I haven’t really showed that I care, me loving you is something that is so constant. Something I am so entirely sure of. Something that I think about all the time. I have moments where I am selfish. I want this. I want that. I don’t want this. I don’t want that. But you, that smile that you give me when I can’t smile myself is the most beautiful thing to see when my eyes are flooding with tears. The moment I realized loving you reminded me too much of myself was the moment I knew. We were just distant lovers who knew each other too well.
Don’t ever compliment me by insulting other women. That’s not a compliment, it’s a competition none of us agreed to.
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"How do I rid myself of missing people whom I know are nothing but toxic to me and my lifestyle? I tend to forgive easily, and then history repeats itself and I find myself in a stump. How do I forgive those who have done me wrong, without letting them back into my life, AND without feeling the guilt from not allowing them?"


Forgiveness in its complete form does not mean forgetting. It means understanding. Real forgiveness should not lead to circular happenings but rather should liberate you from perpetuating those cycles. 

My favorite role model for forgiveness and compassion is a good mother. A good mother will certainly forgive and aspire to understand her child. But will she just forget the child’s mistakes so that they can simply happen over and over? Of course not. 

So aspire to forgive through sincere understanding. Understand that if you were not so influenceable, these people wouldn’t seem so toxic. Also understand the circumstances which have encouraged toxicity in those people. In this way, you can appreciate the larger picture. 

You are still growing and getting your footing, which is why the influence of these people is harmful. Instead of making it about judgments or guilt, simply recognize that it is about personal growth. Some day you will be able to love and help others, no matter how toxic they may seem. But that cannot happen before you uncover some of your own peace and clarity within. 

So be true to what life is asking of you. Go your own way, be open to the new people that come into your life, and surrender to the movement away from the more toxic individuals. You don’t need to isolate yourself, avoid toxic people, or put up walls. Just flow in the direction that awakens your heart until you are ready to live from that place within. 

I’d highly recommend the book The Places That Scare You by Pema Chodron. It will definitely help with this process you are going through. 

Namaste :)

I barely find anybody attractive. I barely feel an affection for anybody.. But when I do.. I fall in so deep, so hard it’s ridiculous.

— Bayron Ortiz (via sluttybastard)